|The need to find a
place always returns.
In Richmond, where my eighteenth century bricks
Fashioned an avenue to stable skin,
I built a proper
house. At Holland Park,
That fleece and leather took their comfort from,
I tried another, in another way.
Both worked. And what the simple martyrdom
Of wanting some position broke for sticks,
And set in place, held back the creeping dark.
I turned there, in my darkness, on my beds,
In tiny rooms, alone, and with my wives,
Or girls who passed for wives. And all my burns
From being lonely, and unsatisfied,
Flared in the silence, like a sheen from tin.
I waited, and, while waiting, something died.
Then, in the heat of Norfolk, I found you.
You brought the sun, through darkness, to my hives,
The bolted iron to my crumbling sheds,
You changed the whole world's shape. Your power grew,
And I, in feeling that, wanted some place
More generous for it than those gentle homes.
I needed somewhere with a flirt of grace
To match your fervour for long acreage.
I found it, here at Oby. Naked space
Over the cornfields, and the next-door farm,
Contracts to an oasis with great trees
That north-east winds can ravage in their rage
And leave still rooted and serene. In these
I feel the sweep of beech-wood, like an arm,
And something deeper, in our copper beech.
That brings a birthright in its massive reach,
A sense of giant time. Seeing it blaze
In widespread feathering, I feel the past,
The creak of longships on the Caister shore,
The swing of mills beside the easy broads,
And something closer, groping slow, at last,
The pleasant rectors, knocking croquet balls.
I take their heritage, and what it pays,
And vow today to make its profits pour
Through founded channels, in my well-kept grounds,
As growth, and preservation. Nothing falls
Or sings, in this wide garden, but its sounds
Calm me, and make our full liaison rich.
So my dream-Scotland grief was noble in
Will drag its graves beneath these grounded urns,
And stake its bas in watered Norfolk clay,
And Kinburn be reborn, as what it was,
And my grandfather, and our Springer bitch,
Both live, in their own way, and like it here,
And feel the rain and sunlight on their skin,
And no one tell apart, which one is which,
The dream of former grandeur, and the firm
Everyday presence of our daily lives.
This is my hope, and what these lines affirm.